Tell me your stories
and sing me your sketchbooks-
I want to learn the scars on your knees like the winter constellations.
We can teach each other much about nothing
in these days of August left to us.
Let's get weird at night
and talk about the world as we see it
while Vega arcs overhead to remind us of the time.
Hold on a little closer to
stay up a little later so that
tomorrow finds our silence between bites of an apples
and pages of comics
warm and tender.
Maps of our lives will someday detail our places:
the path to the overgrown park,
sweet and tangy like September grapes, like sumac tea and forbidden fruits
the roof of your house,
I got the call at 3am
An accident, they said
And the love of my life was lying in a cold grey hospital bed
She never saw it coming
Her drink messed with her head
And the love of my life is lying in a cold grey hospital bed.
You'll be alright, you'll make it through
This couldn't happen to a girl like you
You're the one that keeps me strong
Darling, please don't sleep too long
A nurse came by to check her heart
Couldn't hear a word she said
Cause the love of my life was lying in a cold grey hospital bed
At 5am they took her in
Her sheets were stained blood-red
From where the love of my life was lying in a cold grey hospital bed
You'll be alri
Look at me.
I'm not the perfect girl you want to see
I'm not the kind of girl you're proud of
not the kind of girl I ever meant to be.
I caused fights
between you and Mom, I snuck out at night.
You shook the ceiling, I was scared
so I lashed out in my anger and fright.
But I'm no mirror girl
I'll say what I want to say
If that's too much for you
I'll be on my way.
Look at me.
So very different from your fantasy.
I make bad choices for a little love
No longer groomed impeccably.
It was hard
Trying to always play a part
Couldn't take the limelight and the makeup
I was a crazy wild card.
But I'm no mirror girl
I'll say what I want to say
If t
For the first few weeks afterwards, I wasn't me.
I was china, I was glass.
Someone to hide, someone to pity.
Now it's later. A year, almost.
And the pain is still keeping me broken,
keeping me whole.
It's the little things that get me now.
Coconut ice cream. Cellos. Pretzels baking.
Those things stop me, drag me back
to the days when it came crashing down.
And pain keeps me broken,
keeps me whole.
It's better now.
People have forgotten, kept it away.
As if it was catching-hah!
But the dreams are still there.
And still I am broken.
And still I am whole
I headed down the lane
on an orange autumn day
And hid my thoughts in the fallen leaves
I’ve cried so many times
and my hands have touched my eyes
until I can’t feel them anymore
I’m going towards the railroad station
waiting for the next promise
You don’t have to pretend for my sake
to keep our distance
to run away from
what’s bound to happen
I know I have to say goodbye
the person I’m seeing in front of my face
is hidden in a room where I’ve lost the password
the words that you told me to start the story
remained and reflected themselves
in my teary eyes
there’s a clock tower bell
that
I feel the light wrap itself all around me and
I taste a hint of snow on the air
I’m still awake I’m tired and it’s 2 am
My bed is cold, there’s no one there
There is no heat in my soul tonight
As if a monster’s eating at me from inside
I know my whole life has been a lie
I know tonight that this will lead to the end
And as I dreamed, you were on the floor just gasping for air
My fingers wrapped your neck in a teasing hug that released all of
The life from your shuddering body and soul
While violent crimes were silently filling my eyes
Take me to a core so dark and deep
I think I’ll finally take the lea
in the sea of sneaking and confusion
there is peace
in the yellow bedroom
i am reminded to pause
to savor the moment and breathe.
in the mass of “hurry up” and “do it again”
there is peace
in the inbetween room
the blue lights glow
and a brown bench offers comfort.
under the cracked ceiling
chaos reigns king
and the voices rise-
i escape to the dirty attic to laugh
Time has passed me faster and faster
Can’t forget what we did together
My pain has faded now
Although I don’t know how
Looking back I start to remember
All the plans we made for forever
It’s funny but I know
I need to let you go
The picture was frozen, now it starts to move again
I don’t know what’ll happen next
Those feelings that held me down for so long
Now fly off like a bird
I don’t know how something that caused me all this pain
Is something just like I used to daydream of
I still hear your voice even though my ears are closed to you
You’re calling my name the way you always did.
I don’
Tell me your stories
and sing me your sketchbooks-
I want to learn the scars on your knees like the winter constellations.
We can teach each other much about nothing
in these days of August left to us.
Let's get weird at night
and talk about the world as we see it
while Vega arcs overhead to remind us of the time.
Hold on a little closer to
stay up a little later so that
tomorrow finds our silence between bites of an apples
and pages of comics
warm and tender.
Maps of our lives will someday detail our places:
the path to the overgrown park,
sweet and tangy like September grapes, like sumac tea and forbidden fruits
the roof of your house,
I got the call at 3am
An accident, they said
And the love of my life was lying in a cold grey hospital bed
She never saw it coming
Her drink messed with her head
And the love of my life is lying in a cold grey hospital bed.
You'll be alright, you'll make it through
This couldn't happen to a girl like you
You're the one that keeps me strong
Darling, please don't sleep too long
A nurse came by to check her heart
Couldn't hear a word she said
Cause the love of my life was lying in a cold grey hospital bed
At 5am they took her in
Her sheets were stained blood-red
From where the love of my life was lying in a cold grey hospital bed
You'll be alri
Look at me.
I'm not the perfect girl you want to see
I'm not the kind of girl you're proud of
not the kind of girl I ever meant to be.
I caused fights
between you and Mom, I snuck out at night.
You shook the ceiling, I was scared
so I lashed out in my anger and fright.
But I'm no mirror girl
I'll say what I want to say
If that's too much for you
I'll be on my way.
Look at me.
So very different from your fantasy.
I make bad choices for a little love
No longer groomed impeccably.
It was hard
Trying to always play a part
Couldn't take the limelight and the makeup
I was a crazy wild card.
But I'm no mirror girl
I'll say what I want to say
If t
For the first few weeks afterwards, I wasn't me.
I was china, I was glass.
Someone to hide, someone to pity.
Now it's later. A year, almost.
And the pain is still keeping me broken,
keeping me whole.
It's the little things that get me now.
Coconut ice cream. Cellos. Pretzels baking.
Those things stop me, drag me back
to the days when it came crashing down.
And pain keeps me broken,
keeps me whole.
It's better now.
People have forgotten, kept it away.
As if it was catching-hah!
But the dreams are still there.
And still I am broken.
And still I am whole
I headed down the lane
on an orange autumn day
And hid my thoughts in the fallen leaves
I’ve cried so many times
and my hands have touched my eyes
until I can’t feel them anymore
I’m going towards the railroad station
waiting for the next promise
You don’t have to pretend for my sake
to keep our distance
to run away from
what’s bound to happen
I know I have to say goodbye
the person I’m seeing in front of my face
is hidden in a room where I’ve lost the password
the words that you told me to start the story
remained and reflected themselves
in my teary eyes
there’s a clock tower bell
that
I feel the light wrap itself all around me and
I taste a hint of snow on the air
I’m still awake I’m tired and it’s 2 am
My bed is cold, there’s no one there
There is no heat in my soul tonight
As if a monster’s eating at me from inside
I know my whole life has been a lie
I know tonight that this will lead to the end
And as I dreamed, you were on the floor just gasping for air
My fingers wrapped your neck in a teasing hug that released all of
The life from your shuddering body and soul
While violent crimes were silently filling my eyes
Take me to a core so dark and deep
I think I’ll finally take the lea
in the sea of sneaking and confusion
there is peace
in the yellow bedroom
i am reminded to pause
to savor the moment and breathe.
in the mass of “hurry up” and “do it again”
there is peace
in the inbetween room
the blue lights glow
and a brown bench offers comfort.
under the cracked ceiling
chaos reigns king
and the voices rise-
i escape to the dirty attic to laugh
Time has passed me faster and faster
Can’t forget what we did together
My pain has faded now
Although I don’t know how
Looking back I start to remember
All the plans we made for forever
It’s funny but I know
I need to let you go
The picture was frozen, now it starts to move again
I don’t know what’ll happen next
Those feelings that held me down for so long
Now fly off like a bird
I don’t know how something that caused me all this pain
Is something just like I used to daydream of
I still hear your voice even though my ears are closed to you
You’re calling my name the way you always did.
I don’
You were a constellation of
Pulchritudinous stars
In the night sky
But I could not see you
Past the lights
Of the city
For I had thought the
City lights
Were glorious and
Powerful
But I had forgotten
City lights
Don't
Last.
Welcome, the world says and waves me right in
Opening arms, curling lips upwards and raising hands
Cheeks start to smile, Embraces begin
And I find myself in unfamiliar lands.
I have been here before, have ventured here often
I have made my friends, many hands have been shaken
I have walked with you, seen your worried eyes soften
I have witnessed your creative heart awaken.
You, my dear friend, and I don't talk much
We did for a while but the time zones are tough
But none the less I feel I never really lost touch
Sometimes memories can also be enough
I am no longer a stranger among us two
But when we meet next time I will be foreign
Silly girl,
Whose eyes rain crystals,
Why do you wish to heal?
Do you not understand the beauty
Of your ability to feel?
Silly girl,
Whose grin’s so bright,
Why do you wish to change?
A soul with no emotion
Would appear to be quite strange.
Silly girl,
Whose face is dull,
Why do you live this myth?
You choose to be a shadow,
Smashing daisies with your fist.
Silly girl,
With wounds and scars,
Why have you chosen this death?
No, sinking into your own grave
Would be better than such regret.
Silly girl,
You’ve started to feel,
Just recently you’ve started to cry.
You’ve been down this path again and again,
With a pain
I know I haven't been posting as much recently, which is because I was working on the lyrics for Leave. However, in a short time, I am leaving until the 26th of July at the latest. I am going to visit some family and friends, and will have little or no Interweb access. I'll be taking my camera and sketchbook, though, and will upload everything when I return.
Hi everyone,I won't be able to post anything for the next 2-3 weeks (sorry!)
I'm leaving in the morning pretty early and get back for a day or so at the end of the month before I leave again.
I'll get to write a lot while I'm away, so expect a lot of poems when I can get online again!
Thanks!
Jim woke up chained to the wall, complete and utter darkness except for a candle that had been placed by his feet. A door (though he couldn't see it) was on the far left wall. In the flickering light of the candle he could make out faint shapes-a box, a vial, and a child's doll. The doll was missing an arm and part of its leg. As footsteps approached in the hallway, Jim's terror grew and grew. Why was he being held here? And what would happen to him now? He shoved that emotion down, shaking his head (he noticed that that was the only part of him that didn't seem to be tethered to the wall). The last thing he remembered was meticulously pla
Hey there! I haven't exactly been good at keeping contact, which I truly regret. Since I am in the U.S. now for a year, I thought it might be a good time to renew our contact and say, well, hi!
I've been writing a lot these last few weeks and am gearing up to post a bunch of stuff. I did a bit of photography this summer, and this fall I'm going to be doing a bunch of music.